The Drug

He doped me up  

Filled my body with narcotics that keeps most afloat 

This form knocked me down, far past the foundation that I thought was built on solid ground  

Gravity pulling, I could not maintain momentum to resist the next dose 

You took advantage of every stumble until the great fall 

At that moment I couldn’t move, it was like my spirit was dying inside losing ultimate control 

I did the only thing I knew I could do  

I gave up inside 

I felt a touch that was foreign to my skin, I slowly started to come back to the reality that I once was in.  

As I open my eyes to focus on the room,  

that’s when I could see the shade of the monster grew 

Due to my circumstances and the nature of my current condition 

I couldn’t speak,

eyes focused on him  

In a disturbing rage,

his ego grew  to its peak

Lashing out with ignorance from lack of knowing

Oh, she is faking  

Sir, you cannot fake a seizure 

She had a seizure because she was lying  

Sir, lying isn't a known trigger for seizures 

I sat there in a tomb  

I couldn’t gain any control to move  

I couldn’t speak  

I could barely breathe 

No one was around for my defense 

My soul caged in like a fence 

 I sat there in that hospital bed 

With thoughts running in my head  

(This is what my dumb ass gets)

I had to lose all control

to gain my life in return

(I started to pray for God to help me) 

There was a moment of stillness in that hospital room  

I saw this man for what he was, a pure calculated monster  

I had to realize that was the reaction to my actions

doesn’t make it right but its the truth

That was the last day I played with the monster

and his emotional Ferris wheel

I thank God I made it out alive

This is my truth, take it or leave, It was the most eye-opening experience I have ever had. I was drugged, exploded all of the internet, ripped apart by someone I committed myself to. I had learned the only way a monster can feel is when you do to them what they have done to you for the past nine years.