THE GENERATIONAL CURSE

I HAVE COME TO A CONCLUSION.

I WAS ADDICTED TO DISFUNCTION.

GROWING UP WATCHING MY MOTHER FIGHT A 6’8 MAN LIKE HE WAS A 5 FOOT WOMAN WAS MY NORMAL.

I GREW UP WITH MY MOTHER ARGUING, FUSSING, AND FIGHTING IN THE BACKGROUND OF THE COSBY SHOW.

LIKE A CHILD I CREATED MENTAL ESCAPES, THE CAOS WOULDNT MAKE ME FLINCH.

I BECAME A WOMAN THAT UNCONSCIOUSLY SOUGHT MEN THAT COULD GIVE ME THE SAME DISFUNCTION.

IF MY RELATIONSHIP WASN’T DYSFUNCTIONAL, I WOULD CAUSE IT. ( I CAN HEAR MY X EX CHEERING IN THE BACKGROUND)

MY LONG JOURNEY OF TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS ENDED WHEN I REALIZED IT WASN’T JUST THE OTHER PERSON.

IT WAS ME.

YOU CANNOT CHANGE NOR CONTROL ANOTHER PERSON.

WHAT YOU CAN DO IS TAKE THE TIME NEEDED TO FIGURE YOURSELF OUT.

I HAD TO EXAMINE MYSELF AND WHY I SOUGHT COMFORT IN CAOS.

THAT’S WHAT BROUGHT ME TO MY CHILDHOOD.

WE ARE ALL BUILT OFF OF THE EXAMPLES SHOWN THROUGH OUR CHILDHOOD NOT THE EXAMPLES TAUGHT FROM OUR MOTHERS AND FATHERS.

GENERATION THROUGH GENERATION I WOULD CARRY HURT AND PAIN AND MISERY AND MASK IT AS RESILIENCE, STRENGTH, AND COURAGE.

THE SEASON IS NOW.

FOR CHANGE THAT IS IN YOU AND THAT WILL BE SHOWN THROUGH YOUR CHILDREN CREATING A NEW NORMAL.

I DID IT

I ENDED MY GENERATION CURSE

IT STARTED WITH ME